Memoirs of two hearts..

I was walking towards the campus together with this girl. We were happily chatting. I looked at her as I told myself I won't ever hurt this girl again. But on her face I see another one. That face that has always put me into a trance. That face that has been hunting me in my dreams. That face that I just can't let go. That face that I can't forget. The one who holds my heart.

I have been dying to see her again. I just can't escape the pain. She's everywhere to me. I want to be with her again so badly. But I can't now. Not with this girl beside me. I have done enough damage to her. And as for my past love, I know her well. She's strong enough to handle what I've done. She's tough and feisty. I don't even think that this would hurt her. Well, I just hope so.

As I switched my eyes from her towards the direction we're walking, I saw a familiar face in my peripheral view walking past my direction.

Oh wait, was this another product of my imagination or was it really her?

I looked back. I was taken aback for moment. My prayer was answered. There she is. With that same poise, elegance and confidence. I want to reach out to her and grab her by the arms just like before. How I wished she was this girl that I'm holding.

It was nice to see her again.

But why is she alone?

Oh stupid me. I forgot I left her.

How I regret having done that. I tried hard to take my eyes off her. I know the longer I stare, the harder for me to get my eyes off. Plus, this girl with me has been noticing my action and asked me why. I just nodded at her.

Did she noticed me? I don't think so. Why would she anyway?

I was the one who let things be this way. I should learn to get used to it. Maybe someday I'll learn to let go of her completely, after all I was the one who left. Maybe someday...